conversations

Conversations are vital to everyone as feelings, emotions and actions are expressed through conversations. Conversations are interactive with whoever we communicate with.

Lately I've been very appreciative of the friends I have and the conversations we have because it has been lifting up my spirit through my dark and gloomy days. So this post is dedicated to my very loved friends from near and far who have given me that reason to keep smiling.

When we were kids and learned the way of conversing, we just didn't stop there.

When we find that friend we can converse with in so many different levels that can change our life for good or bad.

When we have that one special person to spend the rest of our lives with, conversations are directed towards a certain goal with the source of love.

When we get older, conversations get more interesting and important but still it doesn't stop there.

Conversations will never stop no matter where we turn.

What? Who? When? Why? How?

Ask yourself these questions and just have a conversation with anyone you meet today. Interacting with people is better than trapping our feelings in a black hole and living all alone right?

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when I fell in love

I am sorry to disappoint but this post ain't about me falling in love with someone on Earth, or anyone in this mortal world of dust as a matter of fact. When I first understood the meaning the love, I would say I was probably about 15. You must be wondering with who or what.

I fell in love with God. I fell in love with the Baha'i Faith.

First stop.

What is joy?

There are plenty of meaning if you look up the dictionary for this word but with the absence of religion and faith, those meanings can only bring you that far.

This is probably what you meant when you say the word joy or when you feel joyful.

The Baha'i Faith says "Joy gives us wings! In times of joy our strength is more vital, our intellect keener, and our understanding less clouded. We seem better able to cope with the world and to find our sphere of usefulness. But when sadness visits us we become weak, our strength leaves us, our comprehension is dim and our intelligence veiled. The actualities of life seem to elude our grasp, the eyes of our spirits fail to discover the sacred mysteries, and we become even as dead beings."

JOY IS SOMETHING THAT YOU GIVE IT AWAY

GIVE IT AWAY, GIVE IT AWAY

JOY IS SOMETHING THAT YOU GIVE IT AWAY

GIVE IT AWAY, GIVE IT AWAY

IT COMES RIGHT BACK TO YOU

IT'S JUST LIKE A MAGIC PENNY

HOLD ON TIGHT AND YOU WON'T HAVE ANY

LEND IT, SPEND IT, GIVE IT AWAY

IT COMES RIGHT BACK TO YOU

Second stop.

Unity in diversity.

This is a principle of the Baha'i Faith that attracted me. The simple truth that people of various background, race, colour, socioeconomic class and so on can unite in common purpose. Which is to have unity.

The Baha'i Faith says "I charge you all that each one of you concentrate all the thoughts of your heart on love and unity. When a thought of way comes, oppose it by a stronger thought of peace. A thought of hatred must be destroyed by a more powerful thought of love. Thoughts of war bring destruction to all harmony, well-being, restfulness and content. Thoughts of love are constructive of brotherhood, peace, friendship, and happiness."

WE’RE ALL LIVING IN A DREAM OF ONE WORLD

HOPING THAT EVERYONE WILL

LOVE AS THEY WERE MEANT TO LOVE

WE’RE ALL LIVING IN A DREAM OF ONE WORLD

HOPING THAT EVERYONE WILL

LIVE AS THEY WERE MEANT TO LIVE

ONE PLANET, ONE PEOPLE, PLEASE GOD WE MAY ACHIEVE IT, 

ONE PLANET, ONE PEOPLE PLEASE...

WE’RE ALL LIVING IN A DREAM OF WORLD PEACE

HOPING THAT EVERYONE ONE SEES

A WORLD OF LOVE AND UNITY

WE’RE ALL LIVING IN A DREAM OF WORLD PEACE

A WORLD OF DIFFERENT COUNTRIES

LIVING IN PEACE AND HARMONY

ONE PLANET, ONE PEOPLE, PLEASE GOD WE MAY ACHIEVE IT, 

ONE PLANET, ONE PEOPLE PLEASE...

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the adrenaline junkie

Sky diving.

Bungee jumping.

Paragliding/para sailing.

Taking off of an airplane.

Deadly roller coaster rides.

Speeding/racing on the road.

Loving the sound of all that?

Congrats for being an adrenaline junkie.

This is an absolutely random post that I came up with when I was flying back home from Penang last Thursday. I must say, the take off was absolutely amazing. It never fails to put a smile on my face. Sometimes, I wish that life was on a fast lane where everything we do only takes a breath or a heart beat to complete but where's the fun in that right?

I love the adrenaline rush that scares to death till you probably pee in your pants but at the same time so exhilarating that you would die if you did not try it.

Adrenaline rushes have been proven to act as a natural pain killer where dopamine is released during an adrenaline rush.

Bear in mind, I'm not encouraging or discouraging anyone. I'm in no place to do that.

Besides, I am an adrenaline junkie too :)

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magic trick #2

Magic trick #2 towards happiness :)

Stage 1: Have you held the hands of a baby?

You can recognize their strength immediately by telling how well they grip your finger. It gives me great joy whenever I reach out to let a baby grab hold of my finger. It is truly an amazing feeling that you feel the connection and happiness by just a simple touch.

Stage 2: Have you ever held the hands of a friend/a partner?

This is another amazing touch where you get to show care, love, assurance, patience, confidence, trust, willingness and strength towards your confidant.

Stage 3: Have you ever held the hands of your beloved mother?

This is one touch that makes me tear up every time I get the chance. Holding my mom's coarse, rough, tough and vein-y hands can almost always put me to tears. Looking at those hardworking, unconditional hands that raised me up, preparing meals for family, doing the chores and touching your forehead whenever you're not feeling well is priceless. A mother's touch is truly an amazing gift I have from God. I still do hold my mom's hand whenever we go shopping although she brushes them off every chance she gets but that definitely doesn't stop me. Love my mummy so much :)

Stage 4: Have you ever held the hands of your grandparents?

This is one touch that you should treasure very dearly. A touch that shows so much care and love that means so much to someone's who's getting older and afraid of every passing day. Treasure them while you can and give all you have to the amazing people who gifted you with your parents.

Being a tactile person as I am, I treasure each sense of touch I have with people in my life. A single touch can change the mood of my day and no words is comparable to that. I have to admit that I'm a huge hugger. I love hugs. Hence, I can never live without people in my life.

It has been proven that hugging is really helpful.

So what are you waiting for?

If all it takes to save your life and someone else's life is by hugging, then HUG SOMEONE TODAY!

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a funny read

It was a Friday on 25th of February when I felt a bit out of my zone. Something I like to call "crawling into my shell". It was a quiet and slow day. Time mostly spent in my room. Without my roommate in. The longest she has been in the room was on Thursday for like probably less than 5 minutes. Its a new kind of freedom compared to what I was offered the previous semester. Anyway, I'm just thanking God for a new experience.

So getting back to the post. BLOG.

This is not going to one of those post where I'm going to give tips on how to blog. Well I believe blogging depends on individuals. I was spending some time looking through a few blogs and came across a few interesting ones.

Ever read one of those blogs where bloggers address their readers? Some posts goes like this "I'm so sorry for taking too long to post something up. How are you doing?/How are my readers feeling today?" Okay, no judgement. But while reading a few blogs that went with this style of blogging, it felt a bit awkward as it occurred to me that I personally do not respond to questions and statements as such. So funny thought #numba1.

Ever read one of those blogs where bloggers address their blogs? Their post goes like this "I'm so sorry I've abandoned you for so long. I hope you didn't miss me too much. I am back now to post something very long." "YOU" refers to the blog. Again, no judgement. But this has gotta be the one of the weirdest blogs I've ever read. Blogs responds to your posts? Funny thought #numba2.

But it is up to bloggers to blog the way they want to. So we shall let them do their job.

But ultimately, I say blogging is fun. A place to vent out, to rant out, to inspire, to learn, to educate and what not.
It all depends on the way you see it and think about it.

But honestly, I gotta say this post was one those "to post or NOT to post" post. Indeed a bloggers dilemma. Don't wanna offend any bloggers out there. So at the end of this post, feel free to laugh, criticize, mourn, cry or anything. I'll receive them with an open mind.

An ending note : PEACE OUT YA'LL! :)

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decisions

For the past month, being at home has shown me many things in life.
The way to be happier. The way to appreciate life and people. And one of the most important lessons is making decisions.

Making a decision is one hell of a process. Usually it leaves us like this :

But sometimes, things just fall into place during the process. Like suddenly things happen and it gives you that light, indirectly giving you a sign. These are the things I like to call "a sign from God".

Among the few decisions I've made in this month are :

1) I'm going to try to change uni to UM because that's where my heart lies and I feel like I need to start over with my life. Somehow it just doesn't feel right in USM. I appreciate what I have right now but I would really want to know how it would be like if things happened the way I pictured everything in my head.

2) Knowing certain people for the past few months has been quite a challenge to me. People sometimes say "the friends we choose defines who we are" and it has been a constant reminder to me in my decisions to make friends. I have a few really good friends and some I wish I had never trodden that road with them.

3) I've made changes in myself . This is also one of my 2012 resolution. Everyone needs a little improvement and this has shown me some light in the areas where I need a change.

120 wrong decisions don't matter if they can contribute to 1, just ONE right decision. The right decision may be different in other people's life but if it's a decision that makes you happy, then it's the RIGHT DECISION for you :)

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red

So recently I've found my cure to illness/madness behind my nightmares and wild dreams because I was traumatized by an incident that happened last year.

Although my friends were by my side and I felt so much comfort from my family, the heart and mind was still unsettled. I hardly went by a day without having tragic scenes in my head. It was tormenting and pretty psychotic I would say.

This is my solution.

And so far, no nightmares, no fears.
I can finally sleep with a smile and wake up feeling totally safe.
2012 resolution, CHECK!

I know it seem to you like there's no significance in that and the colour red on a bedroom wall is just horrible and pretty scary. But I've learned that when you start taking control of situations around you and being happy with them, you actually forget your fears. And for those who don't already know, my favorite colour is blood red. Red, to me, expresses extreme emotions that one feels. I usually do express the extremes. Anger, love, affection, hatred.

So I'm gonna show you a few red stuff I have.

red shirt. Well this is only one of the many.

red shoes. It isn't this clean anymore.

red hoodie. And yes she looks like a serial killer :p

 red hard disk. I call him Mr.Redman.

red slippers on one side. Does this count?

Alright. That's all for now. Lets keep the redness going cause it makes me feel so alive.

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change

I've missed the changes that happened at home while I was up north of Semenanjung Malaysia.
When I came home, I noticed the difference.

But what remains the same is the love we have for each other.
Gives me great comfort to know that it's still the same. The laughs that can go on and on and on for sometimes hours, the dissing and teasing among each other, merajuk-ing and getting mad for sometimes no reason, being totally loud and crazy at the dinner table. These are moments that will remain forever and I do not, not even for a second wish this wouldn't happen.

Sometimes change can be good.

A new perspective is given. A new opportunity. A new route of life. A new solution. A new memory.

So make a change or take a change if you need one.

If you going through the mundane, make a change.

It will definitely give you smile that will last long.

I was watching an episode of Grey's Anatomy that spoke about change. Here is what Meredith Grey had to say about the change she has experienced:

"Every cell in a human body regenerates on average every 7 years. Like snakes, in our own way, we shed our skin. Biologically, we're brand new people. We may look the same. We probably do. The change isn't visible. At least, not most of us. But we're all changed, completely, forever. But that's normal. Its a biologically imperative change."

"When we say things like people don't change, it drives scientist crazy. Because change is literally the only constant in all of science. Energy. Matter. It's always changing. Morphin. Merging. Growing. Dying. It's the way people try not to change that is unnatural. The way we cling to what things were instead of letting them be what they are, the way we cling to old memories instead of forming new one, the way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication, that anything in this life is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change? That's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips and go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment, we can have a chance at life. Like at any moment, we can be born all over again."

Next thing you know, you'll be looking for solutions to this change.

When you come to that point of time, look for this signboard.

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magic trick #1

Happiness is based on perception.

How would you perceive things you do daily?

Something positive?

Something negative?

Would you rather embrace the moments you have while you still can or throw it away and learn nothing?

I'm not saying that other emotions should be set aside but sometimes all we need is to smile and to be happy because there are too much things to worry about.

Happiness is a choice.

When people around you give you a sad face,what is your choice?

To give a positive feedback or show a sad smile too?

I don't know if you've felt this but seeing others around me smile makes me smile too :)

And people look so beautiful with a smile on their face. It is like a whole different aura and light that surrounds you. Suddenly,you just look complete and beautiful with only a smile.

Lately I've been pretty down myself. Not being able to sleep and constantly thinking about one thing that bugs everyone's life which is love. So I made a promise to myself which is to be grateful for what I have.

Then I found out that this is true.

When I am grateful,I am happy.

One thing for sure,I'm so grateful to have my family by my side.

Nothing gives me happiness like my family does.

I would relive to see this moments when I'm gone :

Being totally wacky and loud with laughs about almost everything and anything with my mom at the dinner table or in front of the tv or in the car or just walking into a store and picking out something weird.

Seeing my dad trying so hard to pull off a smile or a laugh at home. He's not a joker but he's the joke most of the time at home. Love you daddy.

Watching my best buddy,younger brother grow since he was a baby till now has been such a great joy. I became a different person because of him. He tests my patience and responsibilities and I am able to show more love because of him.

Lastly,my elder brother whom I don't always meet and get along with since we became teens. Despite that,I still remember words you say because sometimes they do make sense and encourage me through tough times although I never really thanked you for it.

So why not be grateful?

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